Big Big Changes

I have some Big news to share with everyone. For those closest to us have known that Mike and I have been struggling with our relationship for the past 2 years. We have been on a very bumby roller coaster. Just before we found out we were expecting our second child we were at our worst and honestly I am supprised we did not brake up at that point. If we would have it would have been a pretty ugly brake up at that.

During our pregnacy we had our good points and bad points. Once Emmalyn arrived things were pretty good but only for a short amount of time. This last week Mike and I have came to realize that we seem to be much happier with each other and our selfs as friends.

So it is Offical I am now single for the first time in 6 years 3 months and 6 days. Its kinda weird but refreshing at the same time. Mike is still living with us until he can find a place to live and a reliable roomate so he can afford it. Hopefully it will be soon.

Don't get me wrong though, I still care deeply for Mike. He has givin me the two most beautiful kids in the world and spent the last 6 years of my life with me. I would just like the space to find out who i am on my own. Having him here gets a little confussing at times. I miss having a physical connection with him but not being together anymore would be best if we didn't. So far thats the hardest part, I have gotten so used to someone being physically close to me so now that its not there it hurts. I do miss the relationship, but i don't miss the fighting and the unhappiness.

So now as a single mother I am doing what I can to be able to provide my children with a home for the three of us. The one thing I want more then anything right now is for them to have a bedroom of thier own and in a safe place for us to grow as a family.

On a better note Emmalyn will be 6 weeks old tomorrow! She is growing up so fast, she is already starting to hold her head on her own (she still needs help) and can roll from her back to her side. We have had a struggle with figureing out feeding her. We did start out breastfeeding but now that we are on formula we have had a hard time finding one that she likes and is soft on her poor little tummy.

When she was born she had these dark blue eyes and they have gone to a brown color and are just amazing to stare into. I am starting to see more and more of her own personality and its getting to be so much fun!

Andrew is growing up fast still too. One day he talks pretty well and the next his volcabulary is so much larger. I love it but at the same time he is finding ways to back talk and all that horrible stuff! He is very independent, has to do it all for himself. Including trying to make his own bowl of cereal.

Andrew loves Emmalyn probably to much. He loves to just hold her and love on her which is hard cuz he doesn't quite realize his own strength compaired to hers. we have to watch him very carefully around her. He loves to sing twinklw little star to her when she crys, the best part is she stops to listen. So I know that she loves Andrew just as much.



We did get Emmalyn's newborns done so here is a few pictures that I want to share!