Change Has Come

Well a lot has changed for me in so many good ways! Its amazing how easily things change for the better when you allow them to. Mike did move out in January it was a lot more emotional then i was expecting. But the emotions were short lived. I now have realized that those emotions weren't because he was leaving but because I was scared of change, scared to be alone, scared to be doing everything by myself, not knowing if anyone would ever care for me the way I care about them.

After that I realised that I only need to care about making sure I love me, I need to love myself to be able to better my self for my kids.

A lot has changed since I last posted, I found a career path I want to follow. Its crazy how this opportunity just fell into my lap basically. I took Andrew to the dentist and while I was there I saw a fylier about an 8 week program for Dental Assisting. I have never considered a career in the dental field. I through that idea out the window because I hate going to the dentist. But knowing i needed some change I considered it and the idea grew on me so I looked into it more. Class starts April 13th and I can't wait!!
Its a hands on program Day 1 I will be beside the dentist getting my hands dirty so to speak, I'm super nervous about that since I have never done anything like this. But after the 8 weeks I will be able to go out and get work and I will be able to stand out over other students because I have hands on experience. I'm super excited. Dental Assistants make about 30k a year full time! That type of money will put me in a good place to better care for my babies and I! I can't wait to get our own place so my babies can have their own rooms which is much needed right now!

I also been looking for a job to help make things easier for us until I finish school. I got a job interview yesterday and was offered the job on the spot. It was Pretty cool but they wanted me to start tonight! I still have to get my Food Handlers permit, the right pants and shoes before I can start. Since I was unable to get everything ready in time for today I almost lost the job before i could even start. I am not sure how she thinks I am supposed to get all that done without money (hence needing a job) and get babysitting lined up. But I think I got it all ready for tomorrow thanks to the loving support of my family. I don't know what I would do with out them.

I don't need this job but it would be nice to have the extra income. So if things don't work out tomorrow or if i make to much and my kids lose their insurance, or she still hates me it won't be the end of the world in 3 months i will be in my career with my own insurance for my kids and won't need that job anymore anyway. I have never worked as a server before but at least i don't have to take orders, just serve drinks!! Should be good.

Emmalyn is 5 months and 5 days old. She is starting to roll over and loves to talk and eat her hands and toes. She is amazing and brightens up my day. It is so wonderful to be able to watch my babies interact with each other. They way she gets excited when Andrew walks into the room the gugu eyes she has when he talks to her and plays with her. She is also fascinated by my dad. All he has to do is walk in the room and her face lights up.




Andrew is almost 3 1/2 years old, its crazy how time flies. He is more independent then ever. He loves to help me with his sister and is very protective of her. Making sure her Binky and blanket are always by her side. Its almost like he feels he is the man of the family now and has to take care of us. Its adorable. He is starting to sing all the time, he can recognise songs from the radio and sing lines almost word for word. He is growing up so fast and turning into his own person, i love watching him grow, experience and learn new things on his own!




Flu season is the worst both kids got sick with RSV. Luckily they didn't end up in the hospital and are doing a lot better. But that's some tiring scary stuff. Its hard having to keep them in the house at all times until they are all better. It means I can't leave until i have someone else home to sit with them.

All in All Change has been a wonderful thing for my family and I!

More to share tomorrow, goodnight!